Mommy - Songs About Children Lyrics
1. The Day I Turned 13
i remember being a tiny tween picking at the grass
petting dogs in a strange backyard
making neighbors laugh
the girls around me were chewing up their food
while all the boys stood around us
spitting at our shoes
being young was so much fun but our bodies had to change
i think we'd all be happier if our bodies stayed the same
never in my life could i have ever dreamed
of all the eyes that followed me the day i turned thirteen
i wish i was a tiny tween picking at the grass
petting dogs in that strange backyard making anybody laugh
now any adult that spits or makes me chew food
i would write them off forever for trying to get me in the mood
2. N.Y. Presbyterian
i knew a boy whose blood turned bad
i never knew about disease or any problems that he had
except when he got a cut we would get locked in our rooms
they would make us keep quiet and no one was allowed to move
he never had a dad and his mother left him here
i asked him how long he lived inside he told me
stopped counting after the second year
i asked out of sympathy and he didn't seem that interested
whenever he sneezed they would wrap him in sheets and
hide him from the other kids this happened every week
he never drew he never wrote he never ate he never spoke
about his weak legs or about his thin hair he knew he was dying
he seemed so scared i didn't know his name he didn't know mine
but i think about you from time to time
he died at new york presbyterian no one came to visit him
3. No More Fathers
every father should be in jail they never help their kids
i wake up every morning happy that mine is
i never wanted to be tough i never wanted to be strong
fatherhood means nothing fatherhood is wrong
every time i think of him it makes me want to smile
his life so ruined he can't come back he's locked up for a while
4. Learning In The Bathroom
raised by strangers so i learned the birds and the bees
by reading notes on bathroom stalls from other kids just like me
high school boys and girls pressure others to take a mate
those are the types of people i tried to avoid i tried to hate
what do they dream of before they go to sleep
do they think of me while they are rollign in their sheets
i hope they think of me while waking from the sun
i try so hard i can't think of anyone
raised by strangers so i learned the birds and the bees
by reading notes on bathroom stalls from other kids just like me
"eat speed and have sex with everyone" it sounded so nice
but i swear it was never any fun
5. In My Dollhouse (Please Never Leave Me)
in my dollhouse i have everything we need
no one has to stray from my bedside table
6. My Two Dead Dogs
when i finally came home my dogs were dead
i looked for them for hours and in my head
they must be out walking sniffing in the breeze
all those years away and my mother never told me
now i'm alone and lonely
they think you're so weak you can't handle two dead pets
a sensitive family that thinks i would cry about losing it all
like i worry about having nothing left
i've watched close friends deny food for years
they really think two dead dogs could bring me to tears?
all i know is i would really love a dog to pet
i would really love a dog to pet
7. How to Act at Funerals
i didn't speak to his family or say hello to any friends
everyone was crying i didn't understand them
they were leaking tears for their former son
but i couldn't feel for any of them
i should be alone
i can't mourner for anyone
i know i shouldn't stay
because i can't mourn for anybody
looking in their eyes it made me feel so stranger
i was best friends with him but this felt like a normal day
i couldn't cry for their ugly son
i don't think i cared about any of them
i resented his mom i resented his dad but i hated his sister
who lost everything she had
with their black clothes and their tears i felt so sick
i didn't understand the problem i bet they were all faking it
8. A Jealous Boy
i was jealous of bones
toes, lips, thoughts, and clothes
i was jealous of those
marking thighs and arms
dashes like tally charts document harm
the only thing that i fear
i can't be normal now not for years
i was jealous of bones
toes, lips, thoughts, and clothes
9. Mommy
i always knew i was sick when i'd never bathe or leave my bed
when i'd bang my head against the wall over yelling instead
my brother always thought i was a perv while my mommy hid the scissors
i never knew why or even cared that i never met my sister
but i'd never cry or kick or scream or cause my family any scene
except when i'd bang my head bang my head again
i always knew i was strange when i'd be puking everyday
when i'd bang my head against the wall and i thought it was okay
my brother always hated when he heard while my mommy cried in mirrors
i never knew why or even cared that i had to live with strangers
but i never cried or kick or scream or cause they strangers any scene
except when i'd bang my head
bang my head again
