Heavy Discipline - Heavy Discipline Lyrics
1. What's the Point
are we close?
is it just blood that binds?
searching for more
but what is the link?
cold shallow convo like pulling teeth
don't dig deep we don't speak
cold shallow convo like pulling teeth
same three things every time we meet
silence is screaming
clawing to act out
no way to say it but no letting go
at a fucking loss
cold shallow convo like pulling teeth
why am I here? do you need it
not worth the trip is it just the kid?
is that enough to keep us knit
2. Tell the World
lost your way
your proximity to power
crawled on back
had to tell the world
prideful scum
dragging it all back
lies to get plays
had to tell the world
you tell them what's right
use your tears to fight
coulda been different
accept your fate
too much to bear
had to tell the world
surrounded by yes men
never a challenge
gassed you up
had to tell the world
you tell them what's right
use your tears to fight
you tell them what's right
use your poor white tears to fight
and it's on
because it's what you want
wage your war
do more harm
because it's what you want
spouting lies
called your truth
because it's what you want
more attention please
woe is me
because it's what you want
not your story but you told it
is that your truth
dragging names call it progressive
absent of truth
3. Cross to Bear
a free pass to kill us
no matter the bias
no law to protect us
just say you're scared
a fantasy
out the academy
producing killing machines
you make it so fucking clear
proof is not your cross to bear
it's the skin that I wear
and you make it so clear
if you're scared say you're scared
4. Mind Cell
blank expression, defeated
all you've got isn't what you're giving
you don't say it but it shows
think you live in secret but everyone knows
problems you can change
a making of your own
nothing else in your way
a prison of your mind
glimpses of what you can be
saw that person in you if it was just for a second
every step leads to regression
two steps back with the slightest fucking catch
spinning wheels staying put
working towards fictional end
days spend wasting away
do that shit on your own
5. Found Out
a nodding head means that you're listening to me
a pat on the back shows the attention they seek
lip service no mind to pay
all the guilt thrown away
expert at sorry
keeping lines blurry
you're found out
a plausible deniability is the key
convinced the world that you know more than me
silver tongue sliver through me
manipulative mentality
6. Voyeuristic Lust / Reckoning
your pampered life isn't enough
parading in another's likeness
shaped in someone else's mold
your reality too grim to hold
voyeuristic lust feed them slow
how much does it cost to buy a soul
voyeuristic lust feed them slow
no matter who you hurt it's your show
ignore the signs all the red flags
politics only when it suits you
think you lived it soaked in it
dots on your eyes and a purchased grin
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given chances to right your wrongs
put it off ignore their qualms
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given chances to right your wrongs
put it off ignore their qualms
a reckoning at your door
tried civil tried calm
thrown rocks hiding palm
called on your bullshit you tried to ignore
but we won't stop until they all see
a life that isn't yours
it's at your motherfucking door
7. No Amends
youth lived in black and white
no nuance for humanity
gangs of fucking know it alls
an ounce of humility
my way for everyone
preached as if I know it
the one and only absolute
can't tell me fucking shit
think you know it all
23 years old
arrogant child
you exist in my world
regret it
lost friends
sit in it
no amends
you answer for it now
the butt of all jokes
wished death on others
cause they fucking smelled of smoke
8. Can't Cut It
strength in respect
demanding at all costs
puffed chest threats
putting on a show
just can't cut it
no value in softness
I can't fit it
toughness a poison
drowning in it
won't be goaded to fighting another
when the end goal is peace itself
hate too big a burden on each other
no violent ends even if you plead
9. No Space
won't get my say
the admission paid a game you forced to play
hands tied
guess I'm on your side
can't go the other way
force fed your story
no space to say
I've got
no other way to go
make your problems mine
forest for the trees
no space for me
10. Performance Piece
rat race to wokeness
your morals keep lying
retreaded thoughts
hope they buy it
spend your time telling
not hearing
too busy preaching
stretching and trying
lived a whole world of sin
keep on reaching for the upper hand
lived a whole world of sin
performance piece full of shit
think you wanna be someone
but can't be told a thing
think you wanna do something
keep on going til they believe
11. Shaky Ground
I'm talking shit in mixed company
I'm out of turn with no loyalty
no satisfaction with what's around
a stand on shaky ground
too idealistic for my own good
delusional expectations for what others should
pride led me to the wall
a haughty spirit before the fall
small steps to my demise
begging others willing to try
small steps to my demise
good intentions all for naught
realization took too long
years and years of naivety
chalked up to innocence
nowhere near reality
now I've got to pay
heading to the guillotine
12. Bootstraps
out of step with your world
whiteness as your savior
stream of colors all around
all we see is yours
bootless man
bootstraps
not a life to live
when you're not given shit
freedom and famine
to die in it
ask a man to fix his problems
but don't give the tools
punish when we make our way
make us your fools
hope but can't succeed
keep pockets empty
what me locked up in
a penitentiary
fucked
